My journal records dreams I believe are preparing me for death.
It also links to dreams I had before the deaths of my parents; and to a
page for dream interpretation.
"I am not a person who has 'psychic' dreams. I started to record my dreams
in 1988, after a therapist told me they were meaningful. I was immediately
fascinated, and shortly began to study dreams for myself and practise my
It was in 1995 that I had the first dream which seemed to me to predict a
future event, and that the death of one of my parents. It was very
worrying. I thought it would occur during a flight abroad they were due to
take, and consulted with certain friends and family whether to say
anything. I said nothing and they returned safely.
My father died 3 months after that dream, but I had already started a
sequence of about 30 dreams prefiguring the death of my mother 7 years
later from cancer. I really didn't know what I could do with these dreams
other than be perpetually alert and breathe a sigh of relief each time a
few weeks passed by without consequence. For some reason, and if not utter
stupidity I suppose it must be denial, it never really occurred to me to
suspect some stealthy underlying illness like cancer, which was only
diagnosed after she suddenly collapsed one day, 6 months before she died.
After Mum's death I collected together the dreams and studied them as a
group. What could they tell me about my mother? And then what could I learn
about death dreams themselves?
From the beginning the dreams made references to a life after death. It
might be birds migrating, my waiting father, a wedding, birthday, journey,
a Voice from above. This was comforting, but also interesting.
Then I noticed some of the symbols used for the spirit like bird, cat,
lion, fire, tree, flower. What was the significance of these different
forms? And then I was asking myself, How might I have known when the end
was coming? How did the dreams change from 7 years before to 10 days
before? What does it all mean?
I collected my dreams and thoughts into a book I called 'The Lark
Ascending', which has still to find a publisher. It had already occurred to
me that one or two of my thirty dreams had possible references to my own
death. Then in February 2002, I had severe chest pain. Hospital tests said
I was fine, most likely a stress reaction, and after a while I felt
completely better. Needless to say, I looked closer at my own 'death
dreams' after this, one of which had occurred just 2 days before the chest
There was nothing more to be done. Doctor said I was fine, so just get on.
Nevertheless I had a faith in my dreams and decided to see if I could get
any more information about timing from first the IChing and then a psychic.
I added the results in an appendix to my book.
I got on with learning how to use a computer and then building a website to
accompany The Lark Ascending. As that drew to a close I was getting dreams
about not being ready for death, and so I looked around for unfinished
business. One thing I hadn't done was collect together the dreams relating
to my own death, which were all mixed in with other dreams in my dream
book. At this time Apple offered its users a free weblog, and this seemed
the perfect way to present the dreams on the web.
So that is what I'm doing. It is quite bizarre in a way to be calmly
plotting the dreams which seem to point to my death. But any number of
people with mortal illnesses or advancing years must equally prepare
themselves for the moment in their own ways. And as timing is not a strong
point of dreams of this type, I might happily be noting down my death
dreams well into old age! I don't think I will be, but who knows? And that
is the wider point of my weblog. Whether I should die early or late, here
is a piece of live data, which will provide some useful evidence on the
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