A big wall climber is a person who spends multiple
days climbing a single rock wall. Some rock faces are so tall that climbers
spend up to a week climbing, living, eating and sleeping in the vertical
environment. Living in this environment engenders experiences very different
than what may occur on the horizontal plane, i.e. flat ground. It is felt that
the dream experience may be substantially different as well. For this paper, I
have chosen to examine the dream reports of some big wall climbers.
Specific details on the method used in gathering data for this study. "Rec.climbing"
is a news group on the Internet where members discuss rock climbing, ice
climbing and mountain climbing. I am a member of rec.climbing, and posted the
following message:
Subject: Dreams on Big Walls
From: puntalejos@aol.com (Puntalejos)
Date: 23 Apr 1995 23:09:00 -0400
Message-ID: <3nf4oc$aoi@newsbf02.news.aol.com>
I'd like to hear if you have had any unique dreams while sleepingovernight on
big walls.
Basically, what I am interested in is whether the location and circumstances
have an effect on the type and content of dreams.
Please send a brief report of the dream including:
Location (What route, what pitch, etc.)
Dream content (What was the dream about ...)
Any thing else you may think is significant about the dream and the fact that
it occurred while sleeping on a big wall.
Thanks, Puntalejos@AOL.com
This request elicited five direct responses, and a few flames. Flames were
ignored as non-responses and the following five responses were kept for
analysis:
1) From: JB
When I climbed the Triple Direct on El Cap while sleeping @ Camp 6, I had a
very strange dream. I had a dream in which I was being tortured by having my
fingers hit with a hammer. My partners were entertained by my talking in my
sleep saying such things as No, No, Stop. While doing the route my fingernails
had been really worn down, and the pain was incorporated into my dream. A little
aspirin and I was fine.
2) From: PW
Here's a good one. My first wall was the Nose, I was terrified.
Sleeping on El Cap Tower, 1500' up. It's a very flat ledge, about 3'wide,
making a 90 degree corner with the wall. It smells like urine there.
A restless night, I had my face pointed toward the corner because I didn't
like the idea of rolling off the ledge. I dreamt I was in jail, but I couldn't
remember what I was in jail for. The 90 degree. stone wall and floor, the urine,
and the fear all combined. This lasted for a few seconds after I woke up, then I
thought "Oh shit! I wish I was in jail- I've got two more days of terror on
El Cap before it's over!"
Afterwards I would say that route was the most intense and rewarding one I've
ever done. I've done other walls, but like sex, you don't forget your first one.
3) From: GM
I haven't done (been done by??) a wall since the passing of the "iron
age", i.e., when a 60 pin rack weighed 50 lbs. or so... but in that era,
especially one period of time, I was probably best described as a wall-rat,
i.e., over 31 days, 26 or 27 were spent off "the ground". (nose, muir,
dihedral, NW face, south face, gobi wall etc. - all the standards).
But, to dream? who had the energy to do such? what I remember best of peapod
nights were how nice the hammock felt in the evening, how fast/easy one fell
asleep, how deep the sleep was... and how totally crushed the shoulders felt by
morning... and how long partners bitched the following day about the snoring
"machine" that kept them awake all night... ;-)
I wonder if the change in the character of wall climbing doesn't/won't have
an effect on this [dreaming], i.e., in the late 60's, early 70's, big wall
climbing was more of: reach the base, bang in the first placement, clip it, step
up, and repeat (for the next n days), while carrying at least one and maybe two
racks - very physical, but brain dead work. Today with clean climbing, the racks
are much lighter, and the focus is on high standard climbing - much more brain
taxing, a la, could this be more like trying to sleep after a protracted heated
discussion, vs. after a three hour (how about 14 hr) run.
4) From: HJ
You mean people actually get some sleep on walls? :)
My first wall bivvy was on the North Face of East Quarter Dome in Yosemite;
I'd been climbing 8 months. Chuck Carlson and I were wrapped up in spare rope
and slings trying to keep ourselves on this piece-of-shit "ledge."
Chuck's spot was about 10 times worse than mine and yet he snored loudly all
night (I know, cuz I was awake to hear it).
I still remember lying there for hours staring at the campfires on the
shoulder of Mt. Watkins thinking how much I would give to trade places with
anyone on that side of the canyon.
I think I slept 10 minutes, and the only dream I had was that I stayed up all
night.
5) From: EB
Well, not a wall, but last weekend we had to bivvy on top of a climb. We had
some warm clothes, but no sleeping bags, etc...
I kept dreaming that I was dreaming about being stuck on a climb. In the
dream in my dream I thought to myself, "Hey, if I just wake up everything
will be ok." At which point I would wake up and we'd still be there...
----------
Due to the small sample size and the brevity of
the protocols, I will not be doing a full phenomenological analysis of these
dream reports. Rather, I will discuss each dream separately and conclude with a
discussion of their common themes.
1) From: JB
When I climbed the Triple Direct on El Cap while sleeping @ Camp 6, I had a
very strange dream. I had a dream in which I was being tortured by having my
fingers hit with a hammer. My partners were entertained by my talking in my
sleep saying such things as No, No, Stop. While doing the route my fingernails
had been really worn down, and the pain was incorporated into my dream. A little
aspirin and I was fine.
The Triple Direct is a difficult aid route on El Capitan in Yosemite National
Park. JB reports that his dream was unusual, but there seems to be a direct
connection between his waking experience prior to sleeping and his dream
experience. The physical pain experienced as a result of the abrasion of his
fingernails returned as a dream of his being tortured with a hammer.
2) From: PW
Here's a good one. My first wall was the Nose, I was terrified. Sleeping on
El Cap Tower, 1500' up. It's a very flat ledge, about 3' wide, making a 90
degree corner with the wall. It smells like urine
there. A restless night, I had my face pointed toward the corner because I
didn't like the idea of rolling off the ledge. I dreamt I was in jail, but I
couldn't remember what I was in jail for. The 90 degree stone wall and floor,
the urine, and the fear all combined. This lasted for a few seconds after I woke
up, then I thought "Oh shit! I wish I was in jail- I've got two more days
of terror on El Cap before it's over!"
Afterwards I would say that route was the most intense and rewarding one I've
ever done. I've done other walls, but like sex, you don't forget your first one.
----------
Again, this dream report is from El Capitan, Yosemite National Park. This
dream also seems to incorporate waking experience in a symbolic fashion. A stone
corner turns into a dream of being jailed, and the dreamer does not know why he
is in jail. Upon awakening, the dreamer finds that he would prefer jail to his
current situation.
3) From: GM
I haven't done (been done by??) a wall since the passing of the "iron
age", i.e., when a 60 pin rack weighed 50 lbs. or so... but in that era,
especially one period of time, I was probably best described as a wall-rat,
i.e., over 31 days, 26 or 27 were spent off "the ground". (nose, muir,
dihedral, NW face, south face, gobi wall etc. - all the standards).
But, to dream? who had the energy to do such? what I remember best of peapod
nights were how nice the hammock felt in the evening, how fast/easy one fell
asleep, how deep the sleep was... and how totally crushed the shoulders felt by
morning... and how long partners bitched the following day about the snoring
"machine" that kept them awake all night... ;-)
----------
I wonder if the change in the character of wall climbing doesn't/won't have
an effect on this [dreaming], i.e., in the late 60's, early 70's, big wall
climbing was more of: reach the base, bang in the first placement, clip it, step
up, and repeat (for the next n days), while carrying at least one and maybe two
racks - very physical, but brain dead work. today with clean climbing, the racks
are much lighter, and the focus is on high standard climbing - much more brain
taxing, a la, could this be more like trying to sleep after a protracted heated
discussion, vs. after a three hour (how about 14 hr) run.
GM does not report on any specific dreams, although he must certainly have
had plentiful opportunities. In his list of accomplishments, he begins with the
Nose, a prominent route on El Capitan, and mentions several other routes in
Yosemite National Park. He also mentions that it has been at least twenty years
(since the passing of the iron age) since he has done a big wall. It may be that
he did have many significant dreams, but with time has forgotten them. His
hypothesis that the changing character of climbing big walls may change the
nature of the dreams of big wall climbers is interesting but beyond the scope of
this study.
4) From: HJ
You mean people actually get some sleep on walls? :) My first wall bivvy was
on the North Face of East Quarter Dome in Yosemite; I'd been climbing 8 months.
Chuck Carlson and I were wrapped up in spare rope and slings trying to keep
ourselves on this piece-of-shit "ledge." Chuck's spot was about 10
times worse than mine and yet he snored loudly all night (I know, cuz I was
awake to hear it).
I still remember lying there for hours staring at the campfires on the
shoulder of Mt. Watkins thinking how much I would give to trade places with
anyone on that side of the canyon.
I think I slept 10 minutes, and the only dream I had was that I stayed up all
night.
----------
HJ is the first respondent who does not mention El Capitan, but he does
report on a dream that occurred in Yosemite National Park. HJ's experience
occurred while he was still a novice (only climbing eight months) and this may
have had an effect on his dream. It certainly seems to have had an effect on his
ability to sleep, he states that he only slept ten minutes. During that ten
minutes of sleep, he reports that he dreamt that he stayed awake all night.
5) From: EB
Well, not a wall, but last weekend we had to bivvy on top of a climb. We had
some warm clothes, but no sleeping bags, etc...
I kept dreaming that I was dreaming about being stuck on a climb. In the
dream in my dream I thought to myself, "Hey, if I just wake up everything
will be ok." At which point I would wake up and we'd still be there...
----------
EB does not give any clue to the location of his climb. However, he does give
a dream report. This dream contains another dream. In the embedded dream, EB
experiences being stuck on a climb; a replay of his waking experience. He seems
to experience some lucidity in this dream in that he has the awareness to know
that he is dreaming, and the ability to make a decision to wake up. In his last
sentence, EB describes waking up from his dream and still being there, stuck on
the climb. I wonder if he is describing waking from the embedded dream into the
original dream, or rising fully into waking consciousness.
In the conclusion to this paper, I would like to discuss the common themes
encountered in these dream reports. In all of the reports that give a location,
Yosemite National Park is mentioned. Unpleasant events figure prominently in
these dream reports. Being tortured, jailed or stuck comes up in three out of
the four reports that include dream descriptions. The fourth describes insomnia
as a dream theme. All of these reports have as part of the dream content some
reference to the waking experience of the day prior to the dream. This
referencing of waking experience seems to point toward a blurring of the
boundaries between waking and sleeping. Not only are the waking experiences
incorporated into the dreams, but the dream experiences find their way into
waking reality. JB's cries of "No, No, Stop!" are heard by his
partners. PW's dream of being in jail lasts for "a few seconds" after
he wakes up. HJ's dream of insomnia is both preceded and followed by an
inability to sleep. EB dreams about being stuck on the climb, decides to wake up
only to find that he is still stuck.
In summary, there seems to be three common themes. These dreams were reported
from Yosemite climbing experiences. These dreams did not show clear boundaries
between waking and sleeping. And these dreams had negative or unpleasant
content.
YOSEMITE: Yosemite National Park is a world renown climbing area. El Capitan
has without a doubt the most widely recognized profile of any other rock face in
the world. It is not too surprising that climbing in this area engenders
memorable experiences.
NO CLEAR BOUNDARIES between waking and sleeping: There are at least two ways
that this theme may be understood. This theme may reflect the possibility that
these climbers were not able to achieve a very deep sleep while on their
respective big walls. Another possibility may be that the climbing experience
has such an overwhelming sensory impact that it forces itself into the dream
content.
NEGATIVE OR UNPLEASANT CONTENT: I must admit that I was surprised by this
theme. However, there may be several explanations for the overwhelmingly
negative content of the dreams reported. It may be that such dreams have a
greater impact, resulting in a longer memory retention than pleasant dreams.
Another interpretation may result from reviewing the question that was
originally asked. I asked climbers to report on "unique" dreams, and
it may be that only negative or unpleasant dreams were considered unique.
I wonder what kind of response I might have gotten if I had asked climbers to
report on "any" dreams they may have had while sleeping overnight on
big walls. It seems likely that "ordinary" dreams would not have been
reported due to their very ordinariness, and I would still have received reports
of the "unique" dreams.
I would like to end this paper with some suggestions for future research and
a few comments on using computer networks for phenomenological research.
Future research projects may inquire about the "any" dreams
mentioned above. Other projects may ask climbers to describe dreams they have
had about climbing, but not necessarily occurring while sleeping on big walls.
I, for one, have had climbing dreams which have some similarity to flying
dreams. Instead of flying in the sky, I am climbing freely and effortlessly Some
projects may attempt to incorporate positive and creative visualization into the
dream in an attempt to improve climbing performance.
There are several advantages as well as several disadvantages to doing
research on computer networks. Until the final draft, this has been a paper-less
project. This has an environmental advantage, no trees were cut down for this
project. All research and writing has been done right here, at home, with a
computer and a modem. Via the Internet, I have been in contact with climbers
from around the world. I have saved many dollars and much time, by avoiding the
previous necessity of travel. My request was available to a large number of
people, and my co-researchers were both self-selected and anonymous. All
participants independently chose to participate so power dynamics were not an
issue. Because anonymity was assured, all participants could feel free to fully
disclose their dream reports without confidentiality concerns.
This anonymity also creates some disadvantages. I have no personal contact
with my co-researchers, all body language is invisible, and the warmth of human
contact is impossible. Due to the type of contact involved, most replies were
extremely brief and there was only a limited possibility of follow-up
interviews.
I do intend to post this report back to rec.climbing allowing this project to
realize a full circle from asking the question to presenting the results. This
is more than a paper for a class, this is my small contribution to a
"virtual" community of climbers whose common ground or town square
exists in the electronic space of rec.climbing (Internet).
(Originally paper a course requirement for Psychology of
Dreams. Daniel Deslauriers, Instructor. Reprint with permission of C. Winstead
and D. Deslauriers. Modifications for ED format with permission of C. Winstead)
Thanks CW!)
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